I’m not gonna lie, I’ve been depressed and hopeless for the past year, not because I feel I have nothing to live for, but because I do. I’m finally a real fucking person for the first time in my life, and I’m living through a nightmare world I somewhat expected. None of this really surprised me. I knew our future would be a horrific decline for my entire adult life, but I was prepared to face it because I didn’t care whether I lived or died.